134lbs lost, getting fairly close to my target. Some thoughts.
So here I am, over a year later nearing the unthinkable at that point. It’s been a hard, hard year with regards to a lot of things. I’m really happy with the progress I have made and it wont be too long now until I reach my target. I am still seeing a psychologist to try and help me get over my social phobia and anxiety problems that came with the weight-gain and depression. Life is getting moderately easier but it can still be hard to walk down the street sometimes and consciously feel like people are staring at me because I’m so overweight, then I realise that I’m not that size any more but the feelings persist. I’m confident though continuing with my psychologist will help me make progress with these feelings and I’ll continue to get better and better.
I’ve applied to a college course which is a BIG step for me. I had to leave college those years ago because of these problems and it’s kind of inspiring that I feel like I can go back and continue getting an education. It used to be a dark, dark place where I saw no future at all for myself, when I would sit in my room, alone, thinking how great it was not be disturbed by anyone and wish I didn’t have toleave the room. It’s a sad thing to think about, but it’s something that has made me realise how far I have come. I can now go out with my kids and enjoy doing things with them, things like taking them out to parks and museums, running and playing with them and generally just being outdoors more with them. It means the world to me.
Another thing which has been growing on my mind for some time is wanting to maybe start dating again. When I say date, I don’t mean ‘date’ date, I’d ideally just like for the right person to come into my life and to go from there. I havn’t been so lucky so far, even on dating sites I havn’t been getting much notice (or replies lol!) and that’s fine I guess, I think it’s just the lonliness getting to me at some point but hopefully in the near future I can find someone to be happy with.
Like I always say when I blog here, half (or more) might not make much sense, I just like sharing some things now and again and hopefully help inspire some people who think weight loss might be beyond them. It’s not.
I hope you are all doing well and feeling great!
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Wow, your progress is amazing! Congratulations. I’m sure you’ll meet the right person. Good luck!
Awesome progress!! I love seeing succeses like yours! I’ve often wondered if your mind would change at the same time as your body. I guess it’s a process to go from thinking like a ‘fat’ person to feeling good about yourself. Your should be darn proud of yourself though you have come a long way! 134lbs lost is a HUGE accomplishment! Thats a whole person!
You are awesome and an inspiration!!
You are a great inspiration to me. I have to lose a little over 100 pounds. Thanks to you and your success I really feel like I can do it. I really think things in your life are headed up and you will be really successful:).
Grats with your progress.
It’s refreshing to hear something so positive.
What a great success story.
Wow, you have done so well! and it seems to have changed every aspect of your life. Applying for college and everything, that is so great. Well done
I haven’t been on here in a long time and browsed your profile and realized just how much weight you’ve lost. Not just weight.. A lot of inches. You look great! Congratulations about going back to college. It is very important. You will find that someone to settle down with, more likely when you’re not looking. That’s what happened to me and now we’re getting married in June 2010 and just had our first child. Things happen when they happen for a reason! Again congratulations on all of your success!